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Hey, if you find this profile. You can read things about me. Now you can Start reading.. My name is Justine Lee Rubio. People call me "emo" not in my real name. I am twenty but I am so exhauted. I have my own blog. I do it like my diary- I write everything happen to me. I dont have friends. Love? I tried to fall inlove with some randum people.but in the end they left me alone. So, if you will love me. Try to understand me. Dont ever say you love me if your not willing to be with me forever. I am a fan of spiderman. I don't drink water.(my water is soda) I was with myself since the first time i open my eyes. I am bipolar the so called anxiety disorder. I always ask myself an infinite number of questions. I debate with myself because I dont want to know the answer. I wonder who truly cares about me. Who is just using me, who is there for me; and who is desperately waiting for me to fail. I'm not good enough; that I need to be this,this, and this to be successful and liked. I always crave for the attention I know I can't have. I get frustrated because it's physically imposible to be 100% happy. I want someone to vent to but no one will understand me. I question my value, my worth, my pride, myself, everything, and a very dark place. I dont know where to go from here. I don't even know who I am anymore
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Love Story of Emo Boy

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I trusted you when you said that you love me..but dont ever tell me you never leave and promise me that you always there.because i have to believe those lies.

I trusted you when you said that you love me..but dont ever tell me you never leave and promise me that you always there.because i have to believe those lies.

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— Im really sorry for my pillow because of my tears i cried last night. You know that i always have no choice but to cry with you. I was very thankful.because even though i abandoned my friends,family and even myself my pillows still there.always there.. That everytime i feel so much sadness each days. You were still there. I dont know where to go. But everytime i saw you in my bed.i smile because there still one who.belongs to me whatever happen.

Kapag nakakatulog ako-parang ayoko ng magising pa.
Minsan naiisip ko
Inaalala mo din kaya ako?
Nagaalala kadin ba sa kalagayan ko?
Nakikita mo akong nakangiti
Pero naiisip mo bang nalulungkot din ako?
Madalas kapag naiisip ko ang bukas
Parang gusto ko ng mawala sa mundo.
Parang naduduwag ako at ayoko ng magpatuloy
Madalas sumusuko na ako
Pero sa tuwing gagawin ko
Mas nagkakaron ako ng dahiln para magpatuloy at lumaban.
Nasasaktan na ako.
Nahihirapan sa tuwing magbibitaw ako ng masasakit na salita.
Para akong mamamatay sa tuwing maglalabas na ako ng.buntong hininga
AYOKO NA?! ;sigaw ng sarili ko sa kabilang mundo
Pero dahil may pangarap ako
Heto ako at muling nagpapatuloy.
Araw araw nagsisimula
Araw araw naguumpisa.

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once again.im here alone

once again.im here alone

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hey

hey

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did you give up?

did you give up?

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its really hard when you are born with a failed face. “ugly”.. because there is no posibility to be loved and thats one of the saddest thing you ever had when you are ugly,

its really hard when you are born with a failed face. “ugly”.. because there is no posibility to be loved and thats one of the saddest thing you ever had when you are ugly,

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this is why

this is why

Girl: Promise me you will ask me to marry you one day?
Boy: Only one condition.
Girl: Promise me you will say yes!
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Now i start to live as a simple life…
Waking up in the morning is the reason why am i still fighting.
Until the night that i should have to take nap im still fighting.
Fighting,fighting and fighting.
I admit that im not strong enough to take all of this..
Hoping for oneday that im going to see myself wearing smile again.
I dont know why im still writing a love story..
I dont have any idea that i can still feel the love.
Maybe because of those past happen to me.
While i was in my bedroom.
I told myself.
This will the last time that im going to chase someone.
To someone whos nver been fight for me.
I mean im goin to love a person who only love me.
And stop myself for loving someone and lose them.
Maybe id accept the fact that every people who.become a part of your life.
Will someday walks out it…

Now i start to live as a simple life…
Waking up in the morning is the reason why am i still fighting.
Until the night that i should have to take nap im still fighting.
Fighting,fighting and fighting.
I admit that im not strong enough to take all of this..
Hoping for oneday that im going to see myself wearing smile again.
I dont know why im still writing a love story..
I dont have any idea that i can still feel the love.
Maybe because of those past happen to me.
While i was in my bedroom.
I told myself.
This will the last time that im going to chase someone.
To someone whos nver been fight for me.
I mean im goin to love a person who only love me.
And stop myself for loving someone and lose them.
Maybe id accept the fact that every people who.become a part of your life.
Will someday walks out it…

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sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once. sometimes youll find yourself smiling, while missing something at the same time. At timea you can absolutely love a person. All the while wanting to hate them. Life comes without guarantees. Except that smiling will brighten your face. Laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love will change your life.

sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once. sometimes youll find yourself smiling, while missing something at the same time. At timea you can absolutely love a person. All the while wanting to hate them. Life comes without guarantees. Except that smiling will brighten your face. Laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love will change your life.

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— I dont want a sudden death. I want to die slowly, slowly with pain. Because they say in the end this life will flash in front of you and i want to see her for the last time…I want to smell her fragrance, i want to feel her touch and most importantly i want to see myself dying in her arms.
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Have you tried to stay up all night while crying because you realize that your family against you..that they cant understand you.ever!!! Its like even though you cried and cried and cried theyll nver make way to just wipe your tears from shattering.. You feel like a small thing because of the fact that your crying alone… They see only those failed things you did instead of approaching your good things.. You show your respect to them but they never respect you…. :’(

Have you tried to stay up all night while crying because you realize that your family against you..that they cant understand you.ever!!! Its like even though you cried and cried and cried theyll nver make way to just wipe your tears from shattering.. You feel like a small thing because of the fact that your crying alone… They see only those failed things you did instead of approaching your good things.. You show your respect to them but they never respect you…. :’(